Salt_Water_Kisses

Life

2005-05-17T10:37:00.000-07:00

Time has been going by really fast lately ... nothing much has really been going on ... me and chris are ok i guess ... we fight alot but my friend amber said we wouldnt fight if we didnt love each other ... and i do love him ... i found that out for sure the other night at silver lake and i tried to break up with hi because i was going through one of my unstable emotional i didnt take my medicine moods and when i left him there with kevin he was crying harder then i've ever seen anyone cry because he thought from the begining he'd fuck this up because he said he fucks everything up ... like school .. his family ... his life .. and now what he had with me ... and i was so speechless i couldnt tell him it wasn't his fault ... but when i left i felt so empty and i couldnt breathe or think clearly so i parked because i couldnt concentrate on the road and i was bound to get in an accident and i thought about it and i realized i cant really live without him ... i'd be empty .. like a black hole ... he got suspended for the week and i just cant get in a good mood without seeing him ... i saw him alittle yesterday until i started an argument becasue he wouldnt let me go home and i haven't seen him or talked to him since last night ... so now i'm really upset becasue i've left things bad ... but anyways ... i know i love him .. our three months is the 27th and i still dont have any doubts .. he's kept me clean since that overdose that landed me in the ER ... he says something bad will happen if i do something like that again and i dont wanna risk loosing him and what we have. .. i've fucked up the school year ... i'm failing almost all my classes but i dont really care ... i'm going to california in june to see my college i wanna go to ... hopefully my parents will let me go to warped tour again ... alot of people are going ... mr carter is up and about i gotta go before he turns the computer off...
brittany

lately

2005-04-13T09:53:00.000-07:00

hmm not much has happened lately ... my brothers wife had the baby yesterday at 8:18 ... they named her kaylee and my parents went down to virginia to see the baby and stuff and i'm staying with my friend jess til then ... grr i dont really wanna work today or tomorrow or anymore at that fact ... but this friday theres this concert at the grange ... and a bunch of us are planing on going ... yesterday me and kevin were at my house packing beings my parents said once i leave the house i can't go back in beings they weren't there ... and i was putting stuff in my truck and chris comes up to me holding a dime bag with 2 seeds in it and he sternly asks me whose it was ... i dont know if he thought it was mine but it wasn't ... and he was pissed the rest of the night but some of the time he didnt show it ... we went over johns cuz he hasn't left yet and turns out pops punched this guy that was helping them move because the guy tried to kiss mom ... (not my mom or pops ... thats what we call johns parents) ... and then me and chris went to our spot ... (where we go when we frist started hanging out) and sat there and talked ... and back to johns ... then i had to go home with jess ... now i'm at school ... grr .. well theres nothing else to talk bout i'm out ... we're watching finding nemo .. ahh good times ... last day of school ... mr. zimmermans room .. with danyelle ... lol
brittany

Fuck You - DamagePlan

2005-04-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

Fuck you I'm throughI want nothing more from you My sanity is wearing thinI rate, I hateYou determined your own fate Now everything is caving in Fuck your power trip and Fuck your attitude and Fuck your bloated ego too Fuck your history, your tragedy, your misery But most of all...fuck you! Fuck this, all of this Bitch and moan and bleed and piss Seconds away from goin' down Go ahead and push me Your fakery, your butchery Is nothing compared to my hate for you Fuck your apathy and Fuck your empathy and Fuck your nihilism, too Fuck your bitter pills, take 'em all, you never will But most of all...fuck you! Nothing changes, nothing fazes, nothing stays the same Fuck your power trip and Fuck your attitude and Fuck your bloated ego too Fuck your history, your tragedy, your misery But most of all...motherfucker fuck you!

Save Me - DamagePlan

Save me from myself I call out But no one hears my plea Burn my candle fast from both ends Nightmares grow from dreams You don't know, you can't see through my eyes So you don't know me You don't know what's going through my mind But can you help me Save me from myself if you ever really cared Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared Intensity that grows within me Reflections of my pain I'll create or I'll destroy But either way it's always in my veins You don't know, you can't see through my eyes So you don't know me You don't know what's going through my mind But can you help me Save me from myself if you ever really cared Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared Save me... from me...

friday

2005-03-18T10:40:00.000-08:00

wow i'm actually in school now ... i've skipped so many days and so many classes ... i didnt ever bother coming yesterday i slept in instead ... i cant wait for the concert ... sharla got a hold of her connections and we're getting some "candy" for the concert ... i haven't done it for 2 months (since danyelle made me think clearly) but once every now and then isn't bad ... but i think chris will be pissed at me for a while if i do that ... who's all going to the concert?? a i'm bringing a bunch of people from middletown .. we're all coming up in 3 cars ... should be fun ... i dont have to leave til like 12 ... or whenever jons mom gets there so i can follow her home cuz i dunno how to get there... i'm out later
britt

tuesday

2005-03-16T09:28:00.000-08:00

grr i work today ... i dont really want to tho ... i'm still trying to convince this guy justin to go to hte concert on sat so that sharla will go .. and i'm havnig a hard time making chris wanna stay after the first band cuz i really wanna hang out with him ... i work so much we dont really get to hang out much and it really sucks ... i got a cd player put in my car now ... now more portable cd player and cords to hook it up with ... um my parents got my cousins now ... so there's 3 little kids runing around our house ... it's so funny ... we have spent a fortune on them now ... ok well i g2g ... later ..

hmm

2005-03-14T09:41:00.000-08:00

dunno what there is to say ... um i was supposed to work saturday but i didnt know so i went to the mall with shar and chris ... um i worked last night ti like 10 and i work tonight 3-9 ... i'm going to this concert saturday at the william henery middle school in dover to see the metrosexuals and ever since radio and some other bands ... a bunch of us are going so maybe i'll see some poly people .. um dunno what else to say ..later
britt